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Wings fall apart

The butterfly swimmered and swammered through the egg man’s revengeful sunflower. The hazy yellow circus blob was blogging with all its might. The petals were screaming teaming deaming beaming with red yellow orange crazy freestyle eatin ants. No longer seeing deeing peeing freeing, she sweated metted in the sun.

“Ow” and naught more, no fought more. Caught sore, she held up her head bed ted and rose to her froze. Drunk in exuberance of life’s seeming lubrication, she moved in and out of that orgasmic realm of incomplete nonsensical insanification. The deep dark countenance of the deer park foundation led her to the mysteries of Zen Buddhism, amongst other pseudo Chritio-Islamic-Hinduistic ideologies.

The core of her very faith shaken, she retaliated in terror. She tore apart her seeming soul to feed the hungry beasts waning at the door. In vain. The S became an s and the T a t, before she fell down in a crossover melody.

Sleepy creepy flippy floppy, She looked at the egg man. The Walrus was close behind. So was the carpenter. Hello hare! Are you late again?

Oh yesss, life’s a tripping blipping hootin cootin footing mystery.

The wings fall apart.

And glistening in the yolk, she whimpers, for what?

Fishpond

Glassed walls of constriction; yet of comfort, and Sisyphean freedom. Vallisneria and strands of new born Java Fern muddles the few daring rays which made entries into the cloudly water. The little fish look at each other, crib, and gasp bubbles of discontentment. The Goldfish is showing off too much gold.  The Black Molly is darkening up the place. The Swordtail Tetra’s comments are too sharp. The Siamese fighter eats too much. Encapsulated in their little glass pond, they breathed big bubbles against the walls. The world looks big and weird with the concavity.

That frog there.. Is that really a frog? Or is that a toad? Is it here to eat us up? Is she here to lay eggs? Yup, tadpoles for us to eat! Its a she? Horrible taste in skin, she should appeal for a better one…

And thus the fishes kept theorising life, the frog, and other miscellaneous things.

Fishpond.

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Ladies, gentlemen, please welcome Meter Jam. A honest attempt by honest folk to give a dose of ‘their own medicine’ to dishonest autorikshaw drivers in a few major cities in India.



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Meter Jam



So whats it all about? Autorikshaw drivers are known for being notorious in cities like Bengaluru, Chennai, and Mumbai. Some won’t stop for you. Some will insult you. Some charge you extra. Some have tampered-with fare metres. Some adjust their rear-view mirrors to check out your breasts. These some hate you. They detest you. Just like you hate them. And Meter Jam is about giving them a ‘dose of their own medicine’ by refusing them, today, on the 12th of August, 2010.

But did you know that you are the result of these some being the way they are? Oh yes. You. You, me, all of us. I say you because this conversation is happening inside your head. There is no me, only you. Did you ever stop to think why they are the way they are?

Stung by poverty and hate, ignored and belittled in their own land, faced with stark economic opposition from the new big clan of people who live in an imaginary world earning ten or twenty times more than them, with nothing to aspire for, with the harsh antagonists of horrible traffic, irate drivers, and corrupt policemen per diem, they lead lifes filled with problems, real problems, those which cannot be solved by fancy, multi-node algorithms.

And you, dear sir, ma’am, made them the way they are today, by refusing to smile or acknowledge their humanness as they struggle to cope with life and death. You did it, by treating them as machines, as part of the autos they drive, as a system. They were not. You made them that way.

Each time you haughtily climb into an auto and flip out your mobile, each time you treat that driver with scorn, each time you battle with the driver for five units of currency, each time you scream at them, you make them more that way. Each time you oppose them, you create their new existence as a dumb system. Like a soft-drink vending machine.

Did you ever try talking to that driver? Ever asked him* if he had a wife and children? What his children did? If he had lunch? If he wanted a toffee? If he liked A R Rahman? If he could read? Of his opinion on the nuclear liability bill? About life insurance?

You bust forty five rupees on a cappuccino in Barista, and a hundred and twenty two on a burger and french fries in McD.  And you quarrel for five bucks from the auto-driver. Five bucks which is one of two hundred and twenty five billionth of McD’s yearly revenue#. Five bucks which could buy rice for the auto-driver’s family today.

Also remember that their being poor is a result of your being rich.


Agreed that its horrible to travel by autorikshaws today. But does our solution lie in hating them, and oppressing them, in denying them? Or does it lie in trying to understand them, empathising with them, and in love? Can we engage them in love? Can we give them a smile each time? Can we talk to them about family and news? Can we see them as humans? Can we see ‘them’ as ‘us’?

Of course, this will not give us an immediate change. Not all auto-drivers will smile back. Not all will be ready to accept you. But some will. Some whose human lies beneath layers of conditioned systemisation, waiting to be uncaged as though a butterfly from a spider’s net. And some will start talking to you about corruption, about God, about being Christian, about Rajnikanth, about the importance of life insurance, about life, classical music, love, Marxism, the rain… Can we remember those some, and keep smiling, so that we might have a change by the time we transcend?

Can we break that fishpond?

Autojam?


* – based on the assumption, and probable fact that there are no women auto drivers.

[edit: I was wrong about the women auto drivers... Apparently, there are women auto drivers in Chennai. Thanks wise donkey!]

# – from Yahoo! Finance <http://finance.yahoo.com/q/ks?s=MCD>


Meter Jam


‘The meat-eaters’

The meat-eaters is a story I wrote as an [last minute] assignment for my Literatures of Diaspora paper.  Short analysis, disclaimers, and apologies at the end of the post.

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“Cabrón! Entrar en su jaula de mierda!” [“You bastard! Enter your f****** cage!”]

Whack.

Lo que son demonios hacer con nosotros?” [“What are you demons doing to us?”]

Whack.

“What’s he saying?”

“He’s one of them stronger folks lootenant. He’s been at it throughout the f****** voyage!”

“I asked what is he saying sergeant!”

“ Usted debe ser un oficial. Vamos a salir de esta locura![“You must be an officer. Let us out of this madness!”]

“Bichos ¡Cállate! Él no entiende español. [Shut up vermin! He doesn't understand Spanish.] Sir, he’s been wanting to know where we’re taking him, and what we’re gonna do.”

“Thank you sergeant. Now translate this for me. We’re at Los Angeles. Heard of that place? You must know what it means… ‘The angels’ in your stupid language, isn’t it? We’re bringing you here to sell you to people, who will then eat you. Comprehendo amigo?”

“That would be comprendo sir!”

“Whatever crap sergeant. Now translate that.”

E’re en Los Ángeles. Ecos de ese lugar? Usted debe saber lo que significa … The sergeant started saying with a gleeful expression, whilst the captain stalked away chuckling. Somebody banged a baton onto my head and I lost consciousness again. Thus passed my pioneering admittance into the United States of America. Estados Unidos de América.

Somebody had pushed me into the cage. That intimidating crate. But its door was hanging open? The rock and lull of sailing had ceased. We were on land. Somebody was calling out names.

Chael, Abantiades

That sounded like an Americanised version of my name..

Chael, Abantiades?!

The voice seemed to be losing patience.

“Aqui. Mi nombre es Abantiades Chael.” [“Here. My name is Abantiades Chael.”]

I knew English. But a mask of ignorance might be wise. Or so I thought then.

“No entiendo espaniyol. Now get in that truck.”

A translator standing next to the army officer began muttering illegibly. Excellent. From the cage to a truck.

After a few more of us had been pushed into the dirty and smelly truck, bringing the total inhabitants of that dingy space to maybe around two hundred, the doors were closed, barring out the light. We heard the clicks of locks and the roar of an engine. Soon, we were vibrating in tune to the hum of the truck’s engine. Squished like octopus tentacles in pickle, some fainted, some began vomiting, and amongst this snarl, some began to chant verses from la Biblia

Ten days back from then, I think, I remember la policia came and forced us into a truck, apparently for questioning, from the slums in Chihuahua. I remember they came in combat uniform, and rounded up all the inhabitants of that place… Between seven and ten thousand people. No one can say how many truly live in these barrios. The others must also have been bundled into ships with awaiting cages. The others were wondering why, constantly chattering and making conspiracy theories. But I knew.. I knew.. I knew that I knew, but I couldn’t bring myself to know..

A strange feeling pressed me more than that knowledge. A strange feeling for my lovely Paola… my wife.. And my children.. And my home.. My church.. My knowledge of my looming fate had made me thrust my face against the bars of the cage, in a futile attempt to push the ship homeward. The bars had left red press-marks on my cheeks, to add on to the angry pink blots which had popped up on all our bodies in the last few years. Existence was bitter. Like the stem of the jalapeño, the bigotry of the world made me even more bitter.

The truck stopped. I heard the doors open and slam shut. Somebody talking in accented English. And suddenly, light poured in, hurting my eyes.

“Salir a todos!” [“Get out you all!”]

And we were bundled out, and through a cordon of armed guards, into a dark room. The room smelled of something horrible. Like a mixture of decay, sweat, and blood. And all of a sudden, water was splashed on us. Powerful jets of cold, chemical-smelling water. After our ‘shower’, we were made to wait.

Most of them were ignorant of what we were waiting for. I knew. And it weighed me down. We didn’t have to wait long to find out. As many walked around the room, trying to find a weak spot where they could dig to escape, the door opened and a few Americans walked in.

“The next batch eh.” One of them said.

“Yup. The Mexican top boss ain’t that bad… Good stock this is, yes.”

“Oh of course their president can’t keep us waiting can they.” He chuckled.

“Not after we’ve got a few nukes poking right up their a**. Heh heh heh.”

“Well anyway.. Lets get a couple of them chickens out and let people see, shall we?”

They dragged away two unconscious prisoners. In a while, we heard a weird machine hum. Machines… Machines had changed our worlds hadn’t they. A couple of decades back, in 2078, they made that global network of machines. I remember protesting against that along with other students from my university. But who would then bother to listen to a few upstart intellect addicts.. It was disappointing how the governments ignored the movements around the world and gave way to the free market’s desires… The environment needed it, they said. We needed less machines, and for that, the machines had to be networked, they said. Instead, we ended up with even more machines. The concept of labour had changed since then. Two global wars had not made the pig-heads change…

From the other side of the wall, we heard a bell, quite like the bell in a store. So we were in a shop.

Muted voices.

“Hey. I heard you got more supply.”

“Good morning. Yes, that we have. How much would you want?”

“A couple of kilos?”

“I need your ration card, and your Amex.”

Shuffling of feet. Scraping of metal against metal. Cling of a weighing scale. An unfamiliar beep. A few button clicks. The sound of ruffling plastic.

“Thanks Bill. See ya later.”

Estamos en una tienda. Hubo algunas personas que entraron y compraron algo…Those English literate amongst us were rapidly explaining the exchange to the others…

¿Eso significa que estamos en una tienda?[“Does that mean we are in a shop?”]
¿Qué diablos significa eso? [“What the hell does that mean?”]
¿Por qué estamos aquí? [“Why are we here?”]
Quiero casa. [“I want to go home”]

The last was from a squeaky voice. A boy. Not older than fifteen. My heart bled for him. For I wanted very much the same thing.

I want to go home..

Home.. Where my wife and children also in some shop, truck or ship? Or were they safe, mourning the loss of their husband, father… Or were they running across the arid desert, to flee.. If they were fleeing, how would they survive.. How would they find food?

Food… We had been quite well-fed throughout the kidnap. Bread, hamburgers and other American bland stuff of course..

“I could do with a nice tortilla with some salsa..” Muttered an unknown in Spanish. He was unusually tall for a Mexican. Lean-figured and athletic, he had long hair, and sported a beard, very much like a Chinese-beard.

“I don’t care about food any more.” Said I.

“Ah I know what you mean.. But these Americans seem to differ, eh?”

“Apt of you to make a joke of times like this.”

A third voice interrupted. “What do you mean?”

The store bell rang again.

“Momma, momma, I don’t like this place. Why do we come here so often!” A little girl’s voice.

“We need to buy food honey.” Obviously the ‘momma’. It made my thoughts drift to the momma of my own children.. Sweet Paola..

“Good morning ma’am. May I have your ration card please?”

“Do you have more food?”

“Yes ma’am. We got a fresh supply of good healthy Mexicans just today.”

“Good. We’ll have five kilos then.”

“Momma, are we having Mexicans for dinner then? We had Chinese yesterday! How crude.”

¿qué están diciendo? What are they saying? Persisted my companions to those few who knew English. But those few were looking at one another with horror scribed on their faces. Tears, rage, and insane laughter broke about the room. Nos están comiendo. Estamos alimentos. They’re eating us. We are food. Chocked one, amidst hysterical laughter and tears. As other voices joined in and helped the translation of the ghastly news, more hysterical laughter and screams were to be heard. I knew.. I had known..

“Momma! What’s that sound!”

“Its just the Mexicans having fun to be more tasty for us, darling.”

“Yeah, that’s right kid. Whaddya know, they get tastier as they laugh!”

“Hey Jim, what say we show lil kiddo here how its done?”

“Oh yeah, that should be quite a treat, eh kid?”

“Um.. Are you sure its appropriate to show her all that blood?” The concerned mother’s voice.

“’Course ma’am. Kids love it. And they do have a right to know what they eat, yes they do. After all that genetically modified food crap giving people that red thingabobs on their faces and killing people, everyone has the right to know what they eat. Right Reg?”

“Yup. I’ll get one of them out now.”

“Oh oh oh… This is going to get terribly interesting now…” Said my Chinese-bearded friend.

The iron door opened. ‘Reg’ came in with a couple of guards.

“Right. Which of you creeps want to be a children’s media star? How ’bout this one ‘ere?”

The guards assaulted a rather plump little man standing at one of the corners of the room.

“No. No. No. Yo no. Por favor!” [“No. No. No. Not me. Please!”]

They whacked him on the head and dragged him out. The door slammed shut. We heard him moaning as they dragged him across the store.

“So as the Americans run out of food, because of the genetically modified grains and animals polluting all of nature, they start eating humans! How ingenuous!” Commented my friend.

“You knew this from before?” I asked.

“That I did.”

“So I was not the only one..”

“Ooh look momma.. He looks like Santa Claus! But.. but.. Momma, why do we eat Mexicans?”

“Because, honey, their president is a good friend of our president, and he said that we have to support each other in times of need, right. So he said he’d give us a few of them, so that we can have good food here.”

“Thats right kid. And y’know what, you know that this world has like 30 billion folks now right. Y’all learn that at school right? This is a great way to cut down that number. They’re doing this all over the place now. All eating each other.”

“Its Darwin in his true sense.. Survival of the fittest..” The Chinese-beard.

And God blessed them, and God said unto them, Be fruitful, and multiply, and replenish the earth, and subdue it: and have dominion over the fish of the sea, and over the fowl of the air, and over every living thing that moveth upon the earth. And we ate them. We ate them all. And we raped them. Now we rape and eat ourselves. After all, humans are also “that moveth upon the earth”.

“No. No. ¿Qué locura es ésta?” [“No. No. What madness is this!”] Shrieking Santa Claus.

“Look Momma, they’re putting him on that machine… Ewww! What is that red thing all over there?”

“Thats blood kiddo. This machine is what does the cutting trick. You put them in here-” (No! No! Parada! [stop!]) Weird machine hum. (No! N- aaaaaa!!!!) “-and you get them all fresh and cut over here, minus all hair and intestines! There goes Santa! Cool eh?”

One could scoop and make a soup out of the silence which hung in the adjoining room. No one dared to talk. All looked at each other, their eyes screaming their raw fear. I didn’t care any more. I knew. I had known.

‘Darling’ and ‘Momma’ left the store. Remember, the inner thigh tastes the best, especially when cooked rare, Bob had said, as they left. The silence still hung thick. Chinese-beard wrestled a razor from a man trying to kill himself. I coaxed it from him, and ran my finger over the blade checking its sharpness. It was sharp. I put it on one end of my arm, and dug it in. Blood. Pain. I slowly dragged it, pressing hard, digging deep, all the way till my wrist. Blood seeped out like melting ice finding its way down a mountain. Pain. It helped.

“Some try to kill, others abuse their own bodies. Why my friend?”

“We are all going to get butchered anyway. Right now, the pain helps. It helps me forget that I am away from everyone I love as I die. Its like.. Its like a drug. Let me use my body before they do.”

“I’m puzzled by what the world is going to be.. They now send nuclear bombs killing millions for want of water. They do not learn from the lessons of the decades before. In a way, I don’t mind dying now.”

“No. Neither I. Not because the world seems like at an end. Because I don’t find meaning in any of this. All I found meaning in was my family. Away from them, away from my land, I have no meaning. The world has no meaning.”

The door clanged open. In came Bob, Reg and the two guards.

“How many ‘ll we take?”

“Oh, lets say a couple?”

“K Bob. How ’bout that weird looking guy there and the one next to him?”

“That’s us Abantiades.”

“You know my name?”

“Yes. I know your name.”

“How?”

They started dragging pushing us forward.

“Hey! No protest from these ones Bob. Nice eh?”

“Chattering like crazy though. Idiots. Like everything’s normal. No wonder they deserve to be cooked. Like f****** chickens these lot are!”

“How do you know my name?”

“I know Abantiades. The world is, sadly, small.”

“Who are you?”

“Who are we..”

They walked us into a white room, coated with blood all around. It had a sinister looking machine poised on a pedestal in the centre. Adjacent was a door, probably leading to a much more neater display area.

“Adios cerdos Mehicos!” [“Bye Mexican pigs!”]

They shoved my unknown yet known friend into the machine.

“Adios Amantiades. Tranquilidad.” [“Bye Amantiades. Peace.”]

“Tranquilidad amigo.”

A roar of the machine. And voila, my Chinese-bearded friend was a neat pile of fresh cut human meat ready for consumption by inhuman pigs. The fact that I was next gave me a sense of eerie peace.

“Lo proximo.” [“You next.”]

Next change.

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Thanks for perusing through that story! First, I would like to acknowledge and thank Google Translate, the experience given by two Guatemalan friends, and my Sri Lankan buddy for the Spanish. On the same note, I would like to apologise to all Spanish speakers, if its bad Spanish. For my part, no entiende espaniol! Lo sentimos.

Secondly, this story is completely fictional, not based on fact whatsoever. If you anyone finds any similarities to people, events etc., they are co-incidental, and definitely not intended. Apologies for the stereotyping of USA and Mexico, and apologies for the racism. Also apologies for the language used – I was trying to create a necessary verisimilitude.

Thirdly, despite my claim that the story is completely fictional, it has been inspired by real going-ons in the world. Phenomenon like climate change, greed, materialism, racism etc.; topics which I believe I need not delve deeply into for its obviousness.

Fourthly, this is the catharsis of some sort of existential angst. And thus the bitterness. I believe I’m usually a more positive hearted person.

And finally, I deem this work (however stupid and lame it might seem) devoid of copyright. Go ahead and do whatever you want to do with it, if you would want to. Though it might be nice if you could cite me.

I wait

I wait to write,/ for the where could i perfect embody./ i wait for that perfectness.

Incessantly blind to the truth of amaranthine perfectness. Pulling cover over the uncomfortableness that each moment, as it is, is in its perfectness, as events, love, energy and life correlate to form each ecstatic emotion. And the capturing, preserving of this moment is what I find agony in, and what I should be finding agony in.

I wait to write. Meanwhile, ships rip the seas in which the dolphins swap their fins. Crazy ants go walkabout in the sub-Saharan Autralian leaves. Suns revolve, planets emerge, some guy on a wheelchair says that time expands.

We, lost mortals, playing with grains of sand on the cuckoo beach, whilst the ocean of us and I lies ahead, and we refuse to see.

Elephantian dreams shattering like expectations in realosphere. Where do you put your belief in? A question so radical in this world of the present, time.

I await to fly.

‘An AC City Bus’

This is an article written by my brother, in my native language Malayalam. It touched me, and I decided to translate it. Scroll down for the original version in Malayalam.

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An AC City Bus

Today morning, as usual, I woke up making some unknown souls victims to my sleepy curses (I think those were people who were behind inventions of the mobile, doorbell and so on..)… Sigh..

For a person like me, for whom a normal day is destined to be composed of 23 hours of work, for a person who is many people in one, the onset of dawn is a sort of numbness… A numbness nurtured by the pondering about a day full of numbness…

And then come the routines, as usual. Brushing. Shower. Dressing up. Sadistic reminders of the beguilement of souls that shall follow during the day.. And finally, the run to reach office on time. And while on the run, a quick call to my mother to satiate my desire to respect the powers that guide me… “Hello Amma! Rushing to the office… Have not gotten my salary yet… Its ok, I’ll send some.. Can’t take leave from office, don’t think I’ll be able to come home this month… Will see… I hope you are doing fine? Ok, keeping the phone now, the bus is here…”

The bus which I take was a little late today. A bus which was bought by the central government, using money from the United States which they had begged for, and then donated to little Kerala. An ‘AC City Bus’. Though the ticket in that bus taxed my wallet four times as much as it would in a normal bus, its a pretty comfortable affair.. Air conditioning.. Music.. Silent people.. Very important people who sat without smiling.. An awesomely artificial and complex social game..

At the very next stop, a nomad family inched forward to board the bus. They looked very dirty, and carried a few cloth bundles. A small family; a father, a mother, a daughter and a son.. The kids had excitedly started chattering and skipping when they had seen the bus. The father started to step into the bus.

“Hang on! Don’t get on.. Don’t get on.. This bus is not for random beggars..” Said the Honourable Ticket Conductor. The other important souls in the bus started laughing at that. He looked at the conductor with a sour glance. Soon after, he grabbed the cloth bundles and the kids and put them into the bus. The woman followed the bundles, the kids, and him onto the bus.

“It costs 32 rupees for the ticket to Aluva. Half-price for the children. A total of 96 rupees. Get on the bus only if you have money. If not, better get off now! Don’t bother me…” At this, the woman, probably the mother of the children, brandished a crumpled hundred rupee note clenched in her fist. Everyone was quite silent after that…

The four of them shuffled into the seats in front of me. They looked like they had entered some fantasy island. The kids were jumping up and down on their seats. The little girl ran around in the bus, nonchalantly scratching her head. The woman and the man were looking at their children with flooding eyes. Everyone on the bus was staring at them. I saw one too many of their foreheads wrinkle (the conservative committee members, surely). I looked at the girl and smiled. She shyly walked to her mother and hid behind her sari. Her mother covered her gently with her torn piece of clothing. One of the most beautiful sights of the world..

My heart was being wrenched with emotion. And then the person, the man, he said to me, [in Tamil] “The tiny ones’ wish.. Yes… Don’t even have money to buy water now. Hmm…” I gave him a smile. Though my heart was crying.

The bus reached Aluva. Everyone got down. I got down and kept watching the family. The kids were in a happy frenzy, as if they had been presented the moon! The father sat himself down and started on a beedi (a kind of local cigarette). The mother.. The mother! She had settled down in the shade of a tree and was extending a begging hand to people rushing past her. Mother.. Amma.. Can’t take leave from office… don’t think I’ll be able to come home this month… will see… I hope you are doing fine… keeping the phone now… I cried. Amma.. Amma.

Written by someone who prefers to be known as Kochambi.
Translated to English by Neo Garfield.

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I wish I could have done more justice to the beauty of the article as it is present in its original avatar in Malayalam. But my command over the English language does not allow me to. It, I guess, is also one of the plagues of translation. But here, I proudly present the original version by my brother in Malayalam. It has no title.


പതിവു പോലെ ആരെയൊക്കെയോ ശപിച്ചു കൊണ്ടു (അതു മൊബീല്‍ കണ്ടുപിടിച്ചവനേയൊ കോലിന്‍ ബെല്‍ കണ്ടുപിടിച്ചവനേയൊ ഒക്കെ ആണെന്നു തോന്നുന്നു) ഞാന്‍ ഇന്നും ഉണര്‍ന്നു……ആര്‍ക്കോ വേണ്ടി…..

ദിവസത്തില്‍ 23 മണിക്കൂറും ജോലിയെ കുറിച്ചു മാത്രം ചിന്തിക്കാന്‍ വിധിക്കപ്പെട്ട എന്നെ പൊലെ ഒരാള്‍ക്കു…..ഒരുപാടു പേരില്‍ ഒരാള്‍ക്ക്…..പ്രഭാതം എന്നു പറയുന്നതു ഒരു തരം മരവിപ്പാണു…..ഒരു ദിവസം മുഴുവനുള്ള മരവിപ്പിനെ കുറിച്ചൊര്‍ത്തുള്ള മരവിപ്പു…..

പിന്നെ പതിവു പൊലെ ചടങുകള്‍….പല്ല്…കുളി….വേഷം കെട്ടല്‍……ഇന്നു ആരെയൊക്കെ പറ്റിക്കണം എന്നതിന്റെ ഓര്‍മ്മപ്പെടലുകള്‍…..ഒടുവില്‍ തിരക്കു പിടിച്ചുള്ള ഓടലും….ഓടുന്നതിനിടയില്‍ മുകളിലെ ചടങുകളില്‍ ഒന്നു മാത്രമായ മാത്ര് സ്നേഹവും…..ഫോണിലൂടെ……” ഹലൊ അമ്മ….തിരക്കാ…..ശംബളം കിട്ടിയില്ല..അയക്കാം….ലീവ് ഇല്ല….ഈ മാസം വെരാന്‍ പറ്റില്ല….നോക്കാം….. സുഘമല്ലേ…..വെക്കുന്നു…ബസ് വന്നു….”….കഴിഞ്ഞു…..

ഇന്നു ഞാ‍ന്‍ പോകുന്ന ബസ് കുറച്ചു വൈകി…..ബസ് എന്നു പറഞാല്‍ …കേന്ദ്രം അമേരിക്കയുടെ കയ്യില്‍ നിന്നും കടം വാങി കേരളത്തിനു  നല്‍കിയ AC CITY BUS….നാലിരട്ടി പണം കൊടുക്കണമെങിലും സങതി കുശാലാ‍…..എ സി…..പാട്ട്…..ചുറ്റിലും പരസ്പരം മിണ്ടാതെ …. ചിരിക്കതെ ഇരിക്കുന്ന വലിയ ആള്‍ക്കാര്‍….ആകെ കൂടി ഒരു കെട്ടിമാറാപ്പു തന്നെ…..


ഞാന്‍ കയറി അടുത്ത സ്റ്റൊപ്പില്‍ ബസ് നിര്‍ത്തിയപ്പോള്‍ അവിടെ നിന്നും ഒരു നാടോടി കുടുംബം ഈ ബസില്‍ കയറാനായി വന്നു…..കുളിക്കാതെ….കയ്യില്‍ കുറേ തുണി കെട്ടുകളുമായി ഒരു കുടുംബം…..ഒരു അച്ഛന്‍ അമ്മ മോന്‍ മോള്‍…….ആ കുഞ്ഞുഞഞള്‍ ഈ ബസ് കണ്ടപ്പോള്‍ തുള്ളിചാടുന്നുണ്ടായിരുന്നു…..ആ‍ അച്ഛന്‍ ബസിലേക്കു കയറി….“കേറല്ലേ…കേറല്ലേ..ഇതു കണ്ട തെണ്ടികള്‍ക്കു കയറാനുള്ളതല്ല…..“കണ്ടക്റ്റര്‍ ഏമാന്‍ പുറകില്‍ നിന്നും വിളിച്ചു പറഞ്ഞു..അതു കേട്ടു ചിരിക്കാന്‍  ബാക്കി എമാന്‍മാര്‍….അയാള്‍ പുച്ചിചു കണ്ടക്റ്ററെ ഒന്നു നൊക്കി…എന്നിട്ടു പുറത്തു നിന്നും ആ തുണി കെട്ടുകളെയും കുട്ടികളേയും എടുത്ത് ബസ്സിനുള്ളിലെക്കു ഇട്ടു…..പുറകേ ആ സ്ത്രീയും കയറി…..“ആലുവ വരെ ഒരാള്‍ക്കു 32 രൂപാ ആകും…കുട്ടികള്‍ക്ക് പകുതി എടുക്കണം….മൊത്തം 96 രൂപാ…കയ്യില്‍ കാശ് ഉണ്ടങില്‍ കയറിയാല്‍ മതി…ഇല്ലെങില്‍ ഇറങിക്കൊണം….മനുഷ്യനെ മെനെക്കെടുത്താതെ…..” കണ്ടക്റ്റര്‍ വീണ്ടും പറഞ്ഞു….അപ്പോള്‍ ആ‍ സ്ത്രീ …ആ‍ കുട്ടികളുടെ അമ്മയാകും…ആവാം….കയ്യില്‍ മുറുക്കി പിടിച്ചിരുന്ന ചുളുങ്ങി മുഴിഞ്ഞ ഒരു 100 രൂപാ നോട്ടു കണ്ടക്റ്ററുടെ കയ്യിലേക്കു കൊടുത്തു….പിന്നെ ആരും ഒന്നും മിണ്ടിയില്ല…..

അവര്‍ നാലു പേരും കൂടി ഞാന്‍ ഇരുന്നതിനു മുന്‍പിലായി വന്നു ഇരുന്നു…..അവര്‍ എതോ മായാ ലോകത്തു ഇരിക്കുന്നതു പോലെ ആയിരുന്നു…..ആ കുട്ടികള്‍ സീറ്റിലൊക്കെ കയറി ചാടി കളിച്ചു…..ആ പെണ്‍കുട്ടി തലയൊക്കെ ചൊറിഞ്ഞു കൊണ്ട് ബസ്സില്‍ ഓടി കളിച്ചു….ആ അച്ഛനും അമ്മയും നിറഞ്ഞ കണ്ണുകളോടെ അതു നോക്കി കാണുന്നുണ്ടായിരുന്നു…..എല്ലാവരും അവരെ തന്നെ നൊക്കുകയായിരുന്നു……അതില്‍ പലരുടേയും നെറ്റി ചുളിയുന്നതു ഞാന്‍ കണ്ടു…….സദാചാര കമ്മറ്റിക്കാര്‍…..ഞാ‍ന്‍ ആ പെണ്‍കുട്ടിയെ നോക്കി ചിരിച്ചു…അവള്‍ നാണിച്ചു അവളുടെ അമ്മയുടെ അടുത്തു പോയി പതുഞി ഇരുന്നു…ആ അമ്മ അവരുടെ കീറിയ സാരിത്തലപ്പു കൊണ്ടു പുതപ്പിച്ചു കൊടുത്തു…..ലോകത്തിലെ ഏറ്റവും സുന്ദരമായ കാഴ്ച ……എന്റെ മനസ്സ് വല്ലാണ്ടു വിഞുകയായിരുന്നു…..അപ്പോള്‍ ആ മനുഷ്യന്‍….ആ അച്ഛന്‍ എന്നോടായി പറഞ്ഞു….”കൊലന്തയുടെ ആശ…..താന്‍….തണ്ണി വാങ്ങര്‍തുക്കു പോലും ഇനി കാശു കിടയാതു….ആനാ……”….ഞാന്‍ അയാളെ നോക്കി ചിരിച്ചു….മനസ്സു കരയുകയാ‍യിരുന്നെങിലും……..

ബസ് ആലുവയില്‍ എത്തി….എല്ലാരും ഇറങ്ങി…ഞാനും……പുറത്തിറങ്ങി ഞാന്‍ അവരെ തന്നെ നോക്കി നിന്നു……ആ‍ കുട്ടികള്‍ അംബിളി അമ്മാവനെ കിട്ടിയ സന്തോഷത്തില്‍ തുള്ളിച്ചാടുന്നുണ്ടായിരുന്നു…ആ അച്ഛന്‍ അവിടെ ഇരുന്നു ബീടി വലിക്കുന്നു…..ആ അമ്മ…അമ്മ….അവര്‍ എവിടെ…….ദൂരെ ഒരു മരത്തിന്റെ ചുവട്ടിലിരുന്നു അരോടൊക്കെയോ കൈ നീട്ടുന്നു…..അമ്മ…അമ്മ….ലീവ് ഇല്ല….ഈ മാസം വെരാന്‍ പറ്റില്ല….നോക്കാം….. സുഘമല്ലേ…..വെക്കുന്നു……ഞാന്‍ കരഞ്ഞു……അമ്മ…അമ്മ…

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